i wonder...

Have you ever thought of what the world would be like if you weren’t there? Na, no suicidal propaganda bullshit, I mean if you’d never been born. I kinda find myself wondering what that would’ve been like…a lot! I guess I’ve always wondered about that. Then again, I’d have to be here in some form for me to observe what the world would’ve been like. To put it logically, maybe I could’ve been born in some other dimension or parallel universe and I made a trip over here to see what everything was like. But that isn’t all that logical is it? If I wasn’t ever born here, then how would I know I was looking at a world, on which I was wondering ‘what would this world be like if I had never been here?’ Maybe I’d have to think like…well, me, and try to figure out what that world would be like if I had been born over there. That way, I guess, I’d know both sides of the equation. Fair enough!

Well, what would the world be like if I wasn’t ever here? I know it’d still exist. At least, I’m not aware of any direct link between my life and the existence of the earth. I haven’t made even a semblance of a noteworthy impact on anyone around here. At least, I don’t think I have. Actually, I’m pretty damn sure I haven’t. So now I’m thinking…where the fuck did this question even come from? Maybe it’s from the fact that I want to leave an impact on someone. Maybe this is a desperate plea for help. Yea right! Fuck that, this is probably from the fact that I’m more self-centered and/or narcissistic than I think I am. Yay! This answers everything…

Fuck!